Everything is either tremendous
success or devastating
tragedy. My mom sends an article
to my school email about a woman
who fell in love with her breast
cancer. Finn deems me the most
optimistic schizo you will ever meet
but I wish he had said sexy instead
of optimistic. I am learning how
to make my words crash into
the table, scatter all of the little
spoons. I finally understand
how to navigate the grocery store.
Everyone cheers. I turn to the wet
and empty passenger seat. Yes, I was
thinking about you. Yes, I’m still bleeding.
Rob Colgate is a Filipino-American poet from Evanston, IL. He holds a degree in psychology from Yale University and is currently pursuing his MFA in poetry with the New Writers Project at UT Austin, where he serves as the nonfiction editor for Bat City Review and is working towards a certificate in critical disability studies. His work is featured in Best New Poets 2020; his first chapbook, So Dark the Gap, was published by Tammy in March 2020 and won the 2020 ReadsRainbow Prize for poetry. You can find him at robcolgate.com.